In 6 Months Time

OH MY! I haven't posted in over 6 months. If there is a prize for WORST BLOGGER OF THE YEAR then I'm definitely nominated and the favorite for winning. I have soooo much to talk about, but my laptop is broken and I'm posting this from the home computer in my family's house that is almost 10 years old and very slow. Hopefully my baby will be fixed soon because I have a lot of updates to do and summer assignments to finish. UGH. I'm going into my junior year of high school by the way and everyone I know is more excited for me than I am. More on that later. And I've wanted to give a reason why I've changed my blog's name so much. I finally found a winner and its "FITTED CHARM"! I'm so happy for the name and WILL keep it from her on out. The perfect reason I came up with it will be explained later. But today I felt like blogging but I couldn't post pictures because this computer will never accept them and will take forever to download. So, fingers crossed that my baby gets fixed until then I'll be making vlogs to fill in the gaps and later on a may just do a mass post of vlogs, unedited I might add. More on that later as well.
Love & Rockets
Taylor

My Sixteen Candles

Today is my birthday! I'm so excited! I finally get to blow out 16 candles. For some reason I feel a lot better about this birthday than any other previous one. Even though I'm celebrating this on the eve of exam week I don't care because it is my day to enjoy. This day begins new things for me and I'm starting a bunch of things for a happier and improved me emotionally and physically like I said in my previous post.

In the meantime I'll be watching Sixteen Candles and completing review packets before this week of tests commences.
In the meantime I'll take pictures for you all to see how my day was.

So Love & Candles,

justBEE

365 NEW Days for a Change

Happy New Year! I'm SO excited for this year, 2011, a year of new beginnings and changes. However, I want to give a little flashback of what happened for me in 2010

Last year as of midnight: I started this blog; finished my first year in high school; got my permit; found a way to express myself through clothes; made tons of new friends of different cliques; found a passion for the stage; lettered in Academics (yeah I'm a dork like that); won a student body election that was actually competition (Sophomore class Treasurer); went absolutely nowhere for summer break, but did summer assignments instead; started Sophomore year with a rocky academic start; went to my first homecoming; started a relationship; and dump a guy (I'm going to be honest with you I felt so guilty afterwards).

I can't believe all of these things have happened to me, but I want to honestly say I spent the year covering my true feelings up. I was a cynical and jealous 15 year old that envied people, kids at school who were better at everything than me, and other girls my age. I wanted what they had, but last night I realized that I needed to change a lot of things about myself. So I made some New Year's Resolutions; my honest Resolutions that I want to share with you.

1. Try not to be so CYNICAL/SARCASTIC.
2. Take better and much more needed care for my body.
3. Be more friendly and open to other people.
4. Appreciate the things that I have.
5. Work harder on my grades.
6. Learn to love the finer things in life (like turning 16).
7. Save more and spend LESS.
8. Sew more and learn how to style the pieces I already have.
9. Pay attention to detail.
10. Learn how to love myself and think of myself then being better than average.

A lot of these goals intertwine with each other. However, I really want to talk about my 2nd goal to take better care of my body. You may not know this, but I went to go see the doctor over break for a check-up and I found out that I'm 30 pounds overweight. Now I didn't believe it (my mom didn't either) because I never looked overweight since I'm 5'6. But the doctor said I was 150 lbs, a bit overweight, and advised my to eat lesser portions, watch my calorie intake, and exercise a little more than just dance. Let me make this clear: even though I'm still growing and my body is changing I'm not going to honestly depict every single thing I eat and hate myself afterwards for being so big in the first place. I'm going to think of it as a way to a better me. I'm going to watch what I eat and go on a Weight Watcher's plan that my mom and I created. It will be an at home plan and I'm committing myself to this because I know it will lead to a better, more self-confident, and kinder person. I have foods to try, plans and advise to keep me motivated, and new exercise routines to do. My goal is to get down to 125 lbs by the end of the year. I'll try to keep you guys posted about how I'm doing as I go. I won't start until Monday because I'm stalking up on foods to eat and figuring out a schedule of less surfing the web and more exercising/studying. With luck this will be the start of a better me.

On a happier note I did draw my resolutions out, but I tried to take a picture and it didn't come out well so I'm waiting until my mom gets home to take one with her camera. Until then I'm sending you lots of love for 2011. I hope this year will bring you 365 New Days for a Change!

Its not the End just the Beginning

So this week I've been crying my eyes out in my room over the fact that all these great things are ending. The back story is this on Thursday the crowded hallways were filled with yearbooks and in every class someone had one, and the smell of a new book would be wafted in my nose! UGH! I'm on the fence about yearbooks. I mean the good side is that you can reflect back on the year, and see what people meant to others, or how many friends you've made, and its great to read what people think of you. However, like all great things there is a dark side to them. For yearbooks its clearly this the year has ended, we've gone through another year and at one point the security blanket of family and friends is going to end at some point. Meaning graduation! I mean I don't want to graduate because I'll have to move on from what I know and leave my friends and family for something better and my dreams. Yet I want to get school over with and be on my own and be done with all things high school, and family. Problem is I don't know what I want, there are so many things that appeal to me that are so different from each other. I love acting and dancing and I'm aware I can't live off of that but I also love photograph, becoming a teacher, maybe dabble in psychology or becoming a doctor, and even writing I mean I like it. But, I even think it's so crazy that my classmates, at the age of 15, have the idea actually more like detailed plan of where they want to go for college and what they want to do afterwards like with their life of where they're living. I just don't know, and I practically thrive on being prepared and when it comes, I just won't be. Yet, my teacher told me to have a back-up plan, what if all your back-up plans fail and what are you left with, nothing. I don't want to be left with nothing, but something tells me I won't be and things will be alright. Like the light will shine through and will conquer all of my fears and will engulf me in comfort. I mean I guess I'm just afraid of failure and not being prepared for once in my life. I'll admit I am a control freak, there I've said it, I just want to control how my life will be even though I know no one really is. I mean life is hard and this cliche is what I've been hearing a lot lately and I've become convinced.

However, this week has have a better and brighter side of things. Today was Adopt-a-senior Day! I adopted my friend Michael and I made him wear a coconut bra with leas and be my little hula-girl. It was beyond enjoyable and the best piece of news to vanquish all of the overwhelming feelings. Plus I'm Sophomore Class Treasurer! The best news in the beginning of the week! I successfully defeated my opponent and his clever coin candy! I received the news in my English class and went down to the room in which all of the candidates where held and they told us class by class. Oh and even better when I walked back into my class and I told them my exciting news I gave them my "queen wave," my teacher even commented on how much she loved it and my "queen smile." So all these good things have successfully dominated all these bad feelings about the school year.

Anyway, I have no plans for the summer, but I know what I want to do. Maybe take some sewing classes and save money on buying clothes, I know my mom would appreciate that, and go to this huge, important, and great dance camp all the way in New York. However, I do have this English summer assignment to do for Honors in which I'll later have this totally crazy yet cool teacher. My only official plans are this SCA retreat in August, hanging out with my friends as much as I can, eating healthy and exercising I don't want to gain any more weight. Besides my mom really wants to take me to an island or something like the Bahamas or Jamaica. So that might be in store along with this music festival! So I may actually have plans, which I love! Oh and I'll be getting my driver's permit. That's huge! Soon I'll be able to drive on my own and won't be down on my knees begging my brother to take me somewhere, or pick me up at some place. He tends to complain a lot about that stuff and I hear it every single time for about five minutes, but then he'll get distracted with a elaborate car on the road. I just know I won't let this summer go to waste like my last ones, I'm going to take advantage of the few I have left as a teenager.

Anyway I really wanted to post something because the Tyra Show was ending today and Tyra Banks, a very influential celebrity, kept on saying, "it's not the end; its just the beginning of something great, and better." So that's what I'll be and have been thinking about for the next and past few days, and will around this time for the next few years. "It's not the end; just the beginning." I've been thinking about another beginning of a new title page. I don't appeal to me the NOMAD anymore. It doesn't describe me, and besides I don't completely feel that way anymore. I feel attached to the school now because of Drama, it's the best thing and my Drama teacher told me he didn't see me on the roster for next year's Technical Theatre, but he got rid of other students who would either be useless, destructive, or a waste of space. I'm keeping my fingers crossed I'll be the next one on that list, I want all Theater next year because it's the best, I just love it! Anyway, I'm trying to think of cool ideas for the title, like Neon Tiger, or Neon Spaceman, or Spaceman of the Earth, or Dustland Field, Dustland Fairytale, or Shadows of the Dustland, or just plain Dustland. I mean I'm brainstorming very quickly right now of ideas. But I want to still try and collaborate nomad with it. Maybe, I really don't know, actually I doubt it, but I just know I need a change in small and appealing amounts.

So Love & New Beginnings,
justBEE